The Peace Within Will Eventually Comes When You Seek For It
BEAUTIFUL DAY, BEAUTIFUL EMOTIONS ;D Feeeling all happy happy today, no particular reason but I know I am feeling kinda great ;D Maybe its due to the fact that I am taking easyy towards everything coming in my life now.. Well, I guess we always have to expect the unexpected.. :/ I got a feeling that something unexpected will happen.., Let's just see if it will come truee & haunt people again =X no idea~ :D

Well.., lovely day indeed :] I guess, yesterday emotions was swaying~ Hahahaha >:) I realized one way or another.., I am quite happy but sometimes just think that I ain't alrighteyy. WOOOT, Mr John Tan, JonBRO && Boyf chatted with me earlier on ;DDD Hahahha. So happy. Oh well. TADAHHH, at 2337pm SOMEONE UNEXPECTED called me! My tiannnnnnn... >< Hahahaha.., hopefully she will be fine ;] Urm.., Siqi is pretty unhappy. ): Worried for her. SMILEE MOREE SMILEE MOREE! :DD So yeahh.., -.- No more talking any random stuffs.. :/ Urm.., life is pretty fine sometimes :] Weeee chatted finish on the phone & I am backie to bloggg ;]

So ya~~ WOOOOOT!! Tomorrow.., I am going to Jurong Point with my Boyf -.- HAHAHAHAHA. My tian.., New Year Day is coming ^^ WOOOHOOO! Lame =/ Today whole day I was msg-ing LaiyinMEI ;D chatting with her feels great siol~! Once in awhile, chat with her also shuang ;D well.., today's post no pic luhhhh! >< Cos I didn't take any pics! :D anyways.., this post is just this short ;D don't blame .__. & Desmond Toh is mineeee, all mine =D You better don't come & snatch.., I am bad but I just love you that way So so so so in love with you, Boy. I have a sudden craving for laksa!

Labels: #869

This post is specially dedicated respectively to the ones I love. One by one, I am just writing a post just for them :D I got the sudden urge to write for them. Maybe pinning for them? I guessed so too. As always, that's my only way to cure my heart. Moreover, I guess it is a reflection since 2oo9 is coming. =/ Yes, I want my Boyf to msg me right now but it is a thing unlikely to happen for he has to have his ample rest ;] As a girlf, I will just support him virtually loving him loads loads as always ;]

The first one will be dedicated for my Best Friend. I believe everyone has a best friend inside their own heart & I have a best friend whom I love for years and years.., My best friend is just some ordinary girl outside.., but to me, she is not simply a best friend yet also a soulmate or even a close sister.., time has proven to me how much I cherish my best friend. Knowing her for the past few years has been really great.., learning how to face challenges & many other stuffs let me know, how much I cannot live without my Best Friend.., I guess that's the power of Best Friends Forever.. Well, I believe there are definitely people jealous of the close-ness I have for my best friend, but I must say. She is the guidance towards the sunshine I see now.., I never know how important she is to me until 2 years ago. That obstacle made me know, no matter what it takes.., this best friend is one I must never lose. Friendship is strong between me & her for I know regardless how far apart we are, in our hearts we are definitely BFF for life. Nothing can be compared to her.., friends may tell me how jealous they are when they see how much I love my best friend. Well.., I don't care if anyone is jealous or what for I know I love my best friend wholeheartedly & will definitely stand by her if she ever needs me.., for this is the power of friendship I have for her.., I guess somewhere in me is missing her right now.. Friendship can be fragile, can be strong but it all depends on whether how you appreciate & cherish the friendship you have. From her.., alot lessons has been learnt but I know one thing for sure.., her lessons will be passed on & no one will ever replace her from me (: For that's best friends are for. Maybe I may show signs of unhappiness, but Best friend, you give me many more happiness compared to unhappiness :D You have shown many lights in my lifee (: I know our friendship will last, am I right? You will definitely stand by me, right? My Best Friend.., deep in my heart I will always ♥ you loads, Best Friend Forever

The second one will be dedicated to none other than my Boyf <3. I guess I maybe repeating myself over & over again but I know he is one guy which I can't believe I can walk this long with.., we are coming to our 3rd Months.., never did I expect to walk this long with my Boyf.., I know I have fallen really deeply for this man till I have the urge to tell him, I love him, everytime I see him.., he made me feel so special.., he feels so different compared to other guys.., he doesn't force me to do things that I didn't like.., he teaches me what it is like to be in a matured relationship. Being with him, I feel so happy & I learnt how to be a better lady. Completely different from someone like before.., being with Randal & Jordan.., my characters are the same.., always doing yet never talking.., being with Boyf, I learnt how to balance both actions & talking.., my relationship with Boyf isn't always about kissing, hugging or whatsoever yet its all about talking too along with actions.. It isn't always about actions.., being with him makes me feel so at ease. He make me know that I can entrust him with my whole fragile heart.., he cured it & made me back on actions.., in fact I must also thank God for letting this man to love me & let me forget those hurtful memories & see those people who are not good friends.., I guess this is how a real relationship should actually begin.., no matter how much I love him or miss him.., it will never be enough for he has touched the deepest end of my heart.., few more hrs & he will be awake.., but I know I am thinking of him every single moment.., I know this Boyf will be loved loads loads cos until now.., I can still sense his smell lingering around me.., Boyf, I love you.., <3 and I know I am missing you quite badly somehow. So near yet so far.., I guess <3 I ♥ You, DearDear

The third person I am going to someone whom has been with me for going to 3 years being my Korkor standing by me somehow.., he is my beloved Kor.., Weiqiang. I have no idea why am I thanking him but I must say, he helped me judge alot of people in my life & letting me know his "powers".., although he is facing motivation problems.., but no matter where I go.., I will definitely remember this KORKOR in my heart.., it doesn't mean I have forgotten you if I doesn't meet you, its just that I tends to be so lazy to hear you growling over Denise, the woman whom you loved so dearly still.., I don't know how to stop hearing that from you.., but I must thank you for helping me through many stuffs.., well bad and good stuffs, I definitely learnt from you.., but I must say.., you can always contact me.., as we are KORMEI, right? So I guess Korkor, I love you too <3 The power of our KORMEI x3 (: Moving on.., the next two person will be Denise & Jonathan. One is my QINAII derh & one is my Bro respectively.., I don't know currently if they still are.. but knowing Denise, I know Jonathan.., I guess somehow must thank her.., maybe we ain't pals like before.., but the 2 years memories with both of them sure is great.., one side of me do hopes that you two will come back.., the other side of me is like as long as you guys are happy with the choice, I will be glad too for I respect decisions.., Hopes ain't that high but I know what I should think.. no more being all sadded and everything yet moving on with my daily lives.., I guess. All I can say is.., I love you guys alot too. If you guys wanna think your way, so be it.., but it has really great knowing you guys.. Memories last for a lifetime, like I said. ;D I ain't a cold blooded person yet a person who cherish you guys too. From deep in my heart, seek true happiness no matter what you do, & I will always love you two too :]

Next shall be my Family.., a bunch of four people who are related to me by blood, I guess. I admit I maybe unhappy with you guys but no matter what.., thank you for loving me & showering me with those loves.., :D I have nothing to say for you guys but I love you, dad mom sis & bro <33 Next shall be heading to my Two Previous True Loves Randal & Jordan. How can I ever forget them? One whom taught me what's love, one whom taught me what it is like to be played.., memories which last for a lifetime. I guess these two of them, I can never forget them for a lifetime. Lessons of relationships are greatly learnt by them.., they taught me how a girl can be loved sooo dearly & how a girl can be hurt so miserably.., must say being with the two of them made me taste alot of flavors in my life.., I don't know what will come in the way.., but I only can say, thank you for letting me know lessons & last long with the girls you guys love ;D cos I know you guys are always going to be memories which I know I mustn't repeat. Thank you for what you two taught me, thank you x33s Regardless you guys remember or not.., take care & smile always (:

Next, the last bunch of people I love alot are FRIENDS. Friends come & go. But I know all of my friends are deeply loved by me because friends teach many different kinds of stuffs in life. ;D I guess this is life. Whatever comes, I will accept. & I must say, once a friend always a friend (: If you guys ever need me, find me :D I will definitely be there either msg-ing you, calling you or whatsoever. :D I have no desire to name all my friends but as long as I talk to you before, you are already my friend (:

Lastly & the one person whom I must thank the most is GOD ♥. Daddy God is one man whom no words can ever describe the feelings I have for him.., because he loved me so dearly & create many miracles for me. I must say, Daddy God although sometimes I may not attend church but you must know my heart will always have you & I am madly in love with you for you guide me alot since Confirmation Camp this year. My faith for you will never fade because you seriously taught me alot. Thank you for letting me tide through Olvls, letting me love Desmond, letting me cherishing Haruhii & many others ;D thank you & Father, I Love You With My Whole Heart.., my love for you is infinity. For Heavenly Father, thank you for whatever you did for me, Amen <3 I guess these are my dedications for the one I loved.., :D Loving so much so dearly is all I can do. I must say many impacts in my life comes but I know I will stand strong and carry on loving each and every single human (: For this is me. & I will always be the Star always smiling.
Danielle aka XiaoXing will always be here ;D

Labels: #868

I believe I am feeling better & definitely happier compared to earlier on..,
I don't know what has gotten into me.., but I believe it should be due to
Many upcoming events.., eg : Olvls result, New Year Day, Chinese New Year & many more..,
For now.., I know one of the problem which is targeting me is New Year Day..,
For I need one to help me tide over.., help me fight this weird feelings running in me..,
Because last year New Year Day was something which I know I can never forget..,
I need one to help me fight the feelings over & make me forget totally..,
& I really hope that someone will be my Boyf.., the one who knows it all...,
I know he will help me tide over but firstly, I must apologize to him..,
If any day of this whole week, my attitude is like shit..,
Cos I know I am feeling all topsy turvy.., but I believe I can fight it through..,
For I have many friends especially good friends standing by me...,
Some friends are gone & I guess gone for good..,
I have no further wishes to brood over the past yet just moving on.., I guess..

Labels: #867

Being Truthfully Happy Isn't So Easier As It Seemed Cos True Happiness Doesn't Come Always

GOOOD EARLY MORNING, peeeepos :D I am backie to blog once again. ;] Hahaha.., beautiful day, I guess. But I just don't feel right somehow.. Well.., I think I suffered from weird weird emotions problem! I only know that.., I am pretty emo now. But I don't know why.. Maybe due to long hours of sleep >< Okays.. let's blog about my TODAY :D

I have a lovely morning somehow although I barely sleep for 8hrs. Amazingly, I was kaboom-ed by Best Friend & MisakiiSUNNV. Can you believe BEST FRIEND BOMB ME 50 PHONECALLS again .__.?!?! Well.., in the end MisakiiSUNNV called me hse asking me to accompany Best Friend for breakfast. :D Well.. I have to admit I was such a piggy ;x I slept till 9.30am then headed off to Lot 1 to meet up Best Friend. Geeehhh.., I walked to Lot 1 instead cos the fcking train is 5 mins LONG! So pekcek then walked there lo. :D Met Best Friend at MRT theree, then headed off to KFC :DD geeehh I love KFC breakfast! It is damn freaking yummy luhhh! :] KFC BREAKFAST IS NICEEEE!! :] Well.., I was pretty insane cos I msg-ed Boyf then he was instantly awaken D:

Hmm.., then ate breakfast lerh. We decided to go to library. Woah been ages since I last stepped inside the library. Library is sooo peaceful :D Wahahaha >:) I enjoyed && managed to borrow two books under Best Friend's name cos I didn't bring my idiotic card =.= Couldn't use EZ link card due to the fact that I LOST ME EZ LINK CARDDD! Geeehh my first EZ Link card was lost when I was with Randal years back -.- So ya. The past is OVERR ;D So ya! ^^ urm, maybe starting on my story books tomorrow ;D Hmm.., then after that we headed down to Jollibean to wait for MisakiiSUNNV. She was also having breakfast but not with me & HaruhiiBESTIE -.- So ya. Urm.., then Bestie bought me French Soya soy :D Yum!! NICEEEEE! Then after that, I bought a pair of SOCKS! I find it uber cutee nehh && Bestie helped me choosee :] Ohya ohya! We went to Popular to find books too! My tian, I saw STARDUST the story book cost only $1o~!!! WHOEVER BUY FOR ME, I SURE LOVE THAT PERSON DERH! My goodness.., the book is sooo LOVED ♥ ♥ HAHAHAHA :]


MY NEW SOCKS! :D
Hmm, isn't it just soooo cutee? xD Well.., I bought that pair of socks. Then arrived home around 12.45pm. Soooo lame luhh. I reached home, msg-ed Boyf abit then dozed off lerh. I slept for a total of 5HRS! Was soooo tired can =/ But what is so strange was that, I woke up one hr, then sleep again. I replied Boyf every one hour can -.- Then Fish called me for one of the hr! >< LOL! But I managed to sleeep though. :D Weeeee! Okays. Currently I am doing nothing but chatting. Boyf has gone to bed & I am left with chatting with Siqi & Bernard :D Hahaha.., quite nice to chat with friends sometimes~!! :]

Anyways.., I changed my blogskin (: Please rate & comment about it ;D I will definitely love comments, you know .___. HAHAHAHA. Okays, time for some randoms~ :D


& I don't know what has gotten over me.., I think I am thinking too much but whatever daddy is showing me seemed to be signs of unhappiness towards me.., I am feeling all irritated & wanting to shout back at him..., I am really worried that I am thinking too much ): I really hope I will be fine.., I ain't alright. I know that for sure.., I thought after a goodnight rest, I can relax fully yet whatever shitty stuffs daddy is telling me makes me feel all fed up and unhappy. I am feeling all grumpyy & unhappy.. ): Sometimes I really feel no space in my family ): I guess sometimes, being neglected hurts alot! But for the fact, I hate being neglected =/ I really don't like that feeling whatever daddy is giving me.. =/ I hate problems! I think I am just going berserk.. )':

End of Grumbling ):
Bottom is an inspiration which I think I want to type cos I am feeling all weirdy if I don't type it out!!


& Olvls results are coming out really soon..,
Just a blink of eye.., it is going to be Jan 2oo9 soon..,
I am very afraid of whatever results I am getting..,
I don't know will I ended in ITE, Poly or JC..,
Seeing from my this year results, I can jolly well end up in ITE..,
But I really want to go somewhere & carry on studying..,
But something is pulling me down.., I am clueless, so clueless..,
I don't know why but I am just soo freaking afraid like some crazy idiot..,
I have pull my utmost effort in Olvls last Oct to Nov..,
But I am still fearing loads ): causing me to be all tensed up..,
I have no idea why.., I really hope to go somewhere..,
Instead of making my parents feeling all unhappy and gloomy..,
I guess I just have to relax for now & not think so much..,
I hope I can..,
XiaoXing you must be there for me, alrightey.. =/
I will lost without you..,
Guide me too, Father God <3 I am feeling afraid.., Help me in my inner... ):

I ♥ YOU, Boyf <3

Labels: #866

The Greyness Memories Lane Left Me Nothing But Only You In My Heart & Soul
WOO! Just liddat.., Christmas & Boxing Day are over ;D & at long last I am backiee to blog once again ._. Well.., I guess its time to update you guys about me DAILY LIVES! :D It definitely is filled with plenty of Rainbow Colours! WOOO! Thinking about for the past few days happening.., I am quite happy! :D Somehow it feels like the rainbow after a heavy downpour, so great & refreshed sia~ :] Does any soul knows that I cut my hair once again (:? This time round.., I looked alot like a XIAO MEI MEI from what my cousin & everyone is saying >_< How niceee in a weirdyy toneeee~ Hahahaha, well. First & Foremost.., let me try refreshing my own SUCKISH MEMORY of my happenings! Can't seemed to remember in a way! :D Anyways.., I enjoyed the best of my CHIRSTMAS DAY & BOXING DAY. (: I seriously enjoyed myself alot sia! :D

2o December 2oo8, Brief only arh
Before anything further.., I wanna say that I went back to Church on the 2oth! It is a Saturday! Hmm, did jogging after I woke up & bathe. Mommy & Daddy went to Johor, I think. Then Sissy went to don't know where.., leaving me & Bricey at home nia ._. So sad, right? Well, Bricey was soooo lazy to go jogging & Lot 1 with me. So I did brisk walking for 5 rounds then after that I went to Lot 1 to buy Lunch backie :D I didn't buy chicken rice for Briceyy =/ He kept eating CHICKEN RICE WEEKLY, time to change a taste~ Bricey's meal was sooo much more expensive compared to mine. I ate Char siew + Duck rice~ :D RAWKKKK TO THE MAX~! After that, I went to buy Mummy pokka tea :D I solely carried 8 bottles back home! Each 1.5 litrees! I AM A SUPER WOMAN! Hmm, was kinda pissed with my Boyf that day, but I focused more to the stuffs I was managing. Hmm, after that I went to shower & reached home around 3pm! Then that day I have the urge to go church! So after eating.., I watched Ben 1o while waiting the clock to strike 5PM then I can bring Bricey go church along with mee~ :D But saddening to hear, Daddy called & we went church with him =/ How sickening~ So church lo xP then after that.., the rest. I have no further to explain~ Cos no meant to be remembered! D: So ya! Urm, I remember I also took pics at Church too & after church with my Bro. Sis didn't go -.- so no have her pics! :D

My bro!! :D He is like the HUGE-EST in my hse NOW! He is taller than me & sissy -.- How sickening~!


WTH luhh, my bro is like soooo much bigger than me =/ Show you guys two things. Guess which is my hand & leg? xPP


My bro is a very idiotic person =/ Ask him let me take pics! He luhhh.. give me so many ugly shots! >< When I say I let him use the comp first, ONLY THEN HE GAVE ME SUCH A NICE FACE .__. Computer is his 2nd love manxzxzxzxz RAWRRR!!

First idiotic face ._.


Second idiotic face ._.


Third idiotic face ._.
......
..........
................
.......................
..........................
..............................
...................................
FINALLY..., the BEST PIC :DDDD

I ♥ You, Briceeeee <3

21 December 2oo8, Sunday

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldnt they be angry
If I thought of joining you?
Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and i
Have decided to end it all
Soon therell be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that Im glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death Im caressin you
With the last breath of my soul
Ill be blessin you
Copyright-ed (c) from ~euthanas1a

I had a GLOOMY Sunday although it was TANGYUAN DAY ): I slept uber late the previous night due to ALOT OF THINGS between friendships~ So ya =/ Took me really late then I managed to fall asleep. Was uber emo the night. & I woke up really early.., although hoped Boyf to be there but its okays when things cropped up last min ): So ya.., then I went off to Fish's hse. Cos I couldn't stay any longer at home ): Cos I know I will definitely cry & bite myself to ease my pain. That day was quite unbeareable for me.., but after awhile I was better.., but not as much as what it should be. =/ Well.., at Fish's hse, her lil sis give me a pic :D That's my Christmas Pressie from her (: How sweeeet~ Hahahaha. She was really nice. I actually stayed at Fish's hse like really lateee!! I called Bunny cos I was really aching so badly until my tone was soooo... you know you know.

Then chatted with her awhile.., then someone surprisingly msged me and I called her! Guess who? Its Siqii. Waaahhh, it has been ages since I last chatted with her :] Well, it sure feels great to hear her voice & chat. Well she listen but I think she is still blurr. So ya =/ Hmm. From what I know.. Fish kept playing Audition & I helped her bro Shau Hwei collect some stuffs from MapleSEA! Cooool sia, my acc is ALIVE! XIAOXING12 IS ALIVE AFTER DONKEY YEARS! Very unexpected lorh!! :P then.., after that. I had vegetarian Dinner at Fish's hse. Cos I ate CHICKEN =x LOL.., its chicken but made of FLOURRRR! :D Yummm~ I like the vegetarian duck instead ;] I ate alot~ But what is soooo weird was the Kangkong soup -.- I only hear before, samba kangkong. Not Kangkong soup. To be direct.., the soup I don't like ;x Abit pickyy towards SOUP! :D But all I know is MOMMY DEAREST SOUPS are the BEST! (: So ya ^^ Urm.., then later before 9pm, Fish & I went to Jurong Point. WOAH!


JURONG POINT RAWKKKK :D
Okays.., Jurong Point have extended to several parts! &&& I am definitely love it~ :D if only that day the beside me was my love, that will be great ;D HAHAHAHA >:) Fish see that, confirm kill me derh! Urm.., alrighteyy. Then my Beloved Best Friend called me around 9.45pm :D Boyyyy, she called meee~ :D YAY-ness! Hmm, then after walking until 10pm liddat.., I bought myself another Boyfriend Tee & then home sweeet homee~ I asked Boyf to call me cos I was EMO-inqqq again =/ Awww man~ Then finally upon reaching home, I asked Best Friend to call & ask her things :D Boyf & Best Friend chatted lo =x Oh my tian, they are going to play CS together. *FAINTS* Hahahaha. Good match. Hahahah chat chat chat delay my time to bathee -____-||| But then, who cares~ THEYY ARE MY PRIORITYY!! Urm, then after that finally get to bathe around 11pm. Hmm, Fish also msg-ed me say she is home =x Then..., after that in the night.., I emo-ed again =x AHHH, I am emo freakkkk! )': So ya! Then the following day is my CUTTING HAIR!

22nd Decemeber 2oo8, Mondayy

Is it simply soooo cuteeeee?
Geeeehhh, that's my hair :D I didn't have a goodnight sleep once again =/ I went off early in the morning around 11am to Bedok to meet my Aunty & Cousin at her hse. Cos I am going to cut my hair at Kaki Bukit Resevoir :D Well.., we went to that Jean Yip Academy again. My 2nd time cutting my hair at that placeee! WOOHOO, Uncle bought me duck riceee & I enjoyed the meal like sooo much. Cos I didn't eat properly for the past 2days. No appetite, I guess~ Hmm, then around 3pm. We went off to the place..

Hahaha. Aunty said we are going to take bus, but Mimi expected she will take cab. Damn hilarious ;x Hmm, then we finally reached that place. MiMi was cursing the driver & I was like O_O, go one more round? Hahahah. After that.., finally reached & I got a lady to cut my hair! Goshie, I saw the other time the guy who cut my hair SOOO WEIRD! I was CURSING & CURSING at him, & to my surprise his name is DANIEL =x Creeeeepyy~ Hmm.., come come I show you my EMO HAIR~ :D The lady do until I majiam Paul Twohill -.-


Don't I looook so like Paul Twohill?! WTH. xP

Hahaha, I saw it & I was bored so I took a pic ;D I was damn engrossed reading Shaun & Michelle's love story~ :D

Damn cooool, right? xD They are going to get married next year May 2oo9 :D LAST LONG, YOU TWO ARE LOVED <3

Hahahaha.., then while cutting, I took a pic of the UBER CUTE Spongebob bag Best Friend gavee me (: Even mom agrees its cuteeE :D I love you, bestie :D hahahaha she bought that for mee~!!

How can one ever resist the smiles of Spongebob Squarepants? x33s
MY TIAN.., so cuteee, right? xD I am sooo in love with it when I first saw it :D Hmm, boyf no worries I also (L) you (:!! Kkays.., after that. I went off with Aunty and MiMi to Bedok Interchange. Aunty talked alot to meee (: Then after that, we all reached interchange, we all go separate ways. As for me, Boyf & AhTeng came down Bedok to loook for me (: I met up Boyf & AhTENG then we headed off to Boyf's hse cos Herman was at his hse area theree. We went off to GIANT Tamp to buy our stuffs (: Yum Yum! Hmm.., I was abit berserk. But after awhile, it all got better (: I didn't watch much of Little Nyonya. Getting sick of what's happening -.-

After that, slacked at Boyf's hse lorh. I was playing with his handphone? xD He got a new handphone siol!

Well.., this phone is touch screeen derhh. I got pretty dulan by it >< cos damn hard to touch! I tried touching. Yet it appears something elseee -.- Diaoo. Okays, then around 11pm, AHTENG & I left Boyf's hse, headed to MRT :DDD Weeee, AhTeng & I took the last train homeee :D Hmm, as usual. I am finally home around 12am liddat ;D So ya! Urm.., I have several pics of myself with me new hair :D do tell me how's it, kays? ^^ I will love to hear commments! :DD Urm, don't say I am siaocharbo! x3 Its just that I love my hair, can't I? xP hahahhaa.
Me, Myself & I :DDDD

Well.., have I ever mention before that last train is sooo empty? xD I was sooo bored then I took a pic of the EMPTY TRAIN~ Like so emo.

I just edited it :D

Okays.., no more pics lerhhh! Next is heading to 23rd December 2oo8 (:

23rd December 2oo8, Tuesdayy

Being A Kid Can Be So Relaxing Sometimes (:

Well.., on Tuesday. Mommy, Sissy & I went to collect Me & Sissy's passports (: We went to renew our passports :D Well.., the pic is me & sissy respectively. Well I was Primary 1, Chel is only 4 years old only (: We look uber cute, doesn't we? NERDYY DANDAN! (: Okays. :D Then our quene was pretty fast. Chel was some crazy maniac. Cos mom doesn't know that we will be early, so Chel kicked a big fuss -.- but eventually things are better (: Geeehhh, babies are cuteee. ;o Don't tell me to give birth one! Mom met new friends -.- cos some aunty was attracted to my bag! LOL, the aunty was surveying how long the journey is from Yew Tee to Tamp.

LOL.., how can I not know?! My boyf stays at Tamp .___. HAHAHAHAHA. Urm, the aunty got chat with us :D The little kid was cuteee. Urm, but the one while renewing our passports was even cuter. He was barely 1 month old only && has the cute cute WANT-TO-SLEEP pattern is uber cuteee. AHHH ;x I am siao lerh. HAHAHAH. But damn cuteeee! :D After collecting, mommy, Chel & I went off to Bugis by bus! Yum, mom bought me to eat Salmon Fish although Chel got a black face ._.!! Boy, I love it sia! :] Yummmmmm! Urm.., Mommy spend around $21++ on our foood :D then she bought hot dogs too :] Goshie, so nice. I ate till I was really full! :DD Urm.., damn shuang~ 爽!!!! Urm, then Mommy & Chel went off to Sim Lim Tower while I wait for Fish to come. She wants to go Bugis to buy clothes & meet Gary, some guy -.-

Okays ._. then meet her lerh, we went off to Bugis Streeet to hunt a dress for myself for Xmas Eve (: Well.., look here & there, got nothing. && that Fish chose for me derh all so expensive sia >< But finally after a long period of searches, I finally find the perfect dress for myself :D I am so happy! THE DRESS IS NICEE &&CHEAPP! I bought my dress for $1o. NO KIDDING!! Only $1O nia. :D I am quite happy sia! Got the perfect dress~ Urm, didn't spend much, just a small amount :] Hmm.., then Fish & I headed off to Plaza Sing. Her friend, Gary is meeting her there. That guy made me pissed cos he say meet Fish at 3pm, yet we reached there at 4pm, HE IS NOT THEREEE at all! KANASAI, abit dulan of Fish cos she kept throwing atittude to me despite its the guy who did it!!! ><|| DULAN! Hmm, then we went Plaza Sing walk and walk lorh. :] Urm, Fish bought me & Boyf a handphone pouch, couple derh. SO EXPENSIVE. $11.9O, but anyways thanks Fish x3 So sickening can =/ We practically rot at Plaza Sing. Urm something surprises me was I spend everything all less than $3. I bought a Snow Globe for $2.90, drink for $1.20, belt for $2 & many moreee :D Urm.., oh ya. Talking about Bugis, I can't wait to head there with best friend cos I SAW BFF NECKLACEEEES (: Cheap & worth it, I guess (: Urm.., then after that, finally the guy came. I didn't bother to look cos I don't want to look. I met a new friend named Lyn? LOL~ I know her through Fish. That kind of connection xD So ya. Didn't talk much cos around 7pm, I left that place & home sweeet home. Damn gay was I managed to found out something..., it is....,


This phone which I can take can store WMA songs! -.-

Oh well.., that's lame.. I trained home from RED LINE! Hell long man, it took about 45mins. By the time I reached home, it was already 8.30pm plus ><|| So nutsified. But I enjoyed myself though. As long as I am not home, I do enjoy myself~ Okays then chatted with Boyf on phone this and that. :DD that's all~! I slept uber early~ :DDDD

24th December 2oo8, Wednesdayy

Once again.....,
Merry Christmas Eve (:

I woke up early in the morning around 9am to get ready. :D But Boyf gave me morning call at 8.45am! BOX-ES HIM! I am a sleeeeper ;x HAHAHAHA. Then..., called Best Friend at exactly 9am :DD then after that.., I went to get ready. I bathe, showered, blow my hair for the first time & done everything. But I got abit pissed off early in the morning was due to Fish. -.- Cos she wasn't going to meet me at 1oam yet she is going there later COS HER DAD HAVE YET TO BUY BREAKFAST HOME.. -.- So ya. Then I heck care her, watched my Ben 1o & Teen Titans. I changed to meet BEST FRIEND & I take train with her. She was going to Plaza Sing, then Woodlands mah. So ya. Eventually I didn't go with Best Friend but gave her the Christmas card I made for her & MisakiSUNNV :] We chat chat awhile then I headed off to Tamp lerh (: Boyf was emo ): I was feeling uber sad with him too..

So then, Boyf changed destination to meet me. Then we meet at Simei instead. Oh my tian, AHTENG's hair is nice. For the first time.., AH TENG'S HAIR IS HOT! :D Goshie, I like his hairstyle :] New derh sia! Urm.., then go Simei. First time sia~ Was looking here & there.., but no gift shops .__. Boyf bought me kit kat chunkyyy~ Tell you something dumb, we saw TOM & JERRY thereeee -.- How dumbb!! So ya.., headed off to Boyf's hse after all the errands. Saw his parents but they walked way slower than us. Don't careee~ Then I helped Boyf do what is necessary. :D I started to play with AHTENG's cyber shot~ :D Sony Ericsson the cyber shot phone rawkkk :] The one Denise has last time. Kays.., then Fish arrived next, followed by Herman & his girlf & all his relatives, then plus some guy named Jackyy. :D Okays. We played card games & all :] Well.., let me show the pics which they took :P


The fun & laughter we all had together :DDD wooohoooo~!


Random pics which was taken by meeee :D don't curse me if you see your face appearing ;D

Fish & I camwhored on that day quite abit. I guess I have just joined all together & publish all at one go. So much easier & it kills time :DDD hahahaha. Fish, if you see me blog, just take the pic lo :]

STAR FISH GANG x33s (:

Time for pictures of me and the people in the party. I couldn't take with Herman cos his girlf will be unhappy~ So ya -.- eventually I only took with those I can :D not so many, so ya. Saddening to hear is.., my Boyf didn't take with me. So only got me and several other pics! Even his BRO is included~~!!! :D


SMILE PEEPOS, you guys are LOVED x3333s (:

Kays, now time for me, myself & I. :D I was uber in love with my looks that day! But before that, I show you what Fish & I wear. Full Length worhhhh!! :DD



I am a PHOTO SIAOCHARBO

Well.., that's all for my Xmas Eveee. :D Well..., Boyf was the first to wish me Merry Xmas, then slowly AhTeng, Kaile && Many others. :DD
A BIG THANK YOU to all those who wished me...,
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

25th December 2oo8, Thursdayy

HOHOHO, its Christmas (: Hahahaha. Although its over.., but Christmas is always one of the best celebration where you can get pressie :] Urm.., well this year not much pressie, but I just loved all x33s especially from me Godmother. She bought me an Mp3 :DD so random of her. Geehhh. Okays early in the morning around 7.30am, I was awake heading to Church -.- how sickening. I only slept less than 4hrs! Then off to church lorh. I was kinda late cos of preparation :]

Urm.., then I headed off to church met up Dad, Bricey and Chel. Well JonBRO msg-ed me. I was uber happy luhhhh :D! Then msg-ed him abit saying I will call him. Then instead of going home, Dad bought us to Ten Mile Junction to get our breakfast. I ate French Toast. Simple & Light. :D But still, my stomach was painful cos I was having my period then I was having CRAMPS! I HATE CRAMPS !! Okays =/ Well, overall morning was okays. Then upon heading home.., JonBRO called me. He didn't see the after msg. -.- urm...,then upon reaching home, I called him. :] We chatted till 12.30pm. I think about 2 hrs of conversation ;D damn fun~ Urm, then he told me my mistakes and everything. Sorry Boyf if I neglected you

Then.., after that around 1pm, headed off to PoPo's hse -.- as usual. I managed to take pics with Sis & Bricey :D But Bricey's hand was extra, can =/ Then.., ate lunch there, rot rot. I was growling of pain cos my cramps hurt!! ><" What's best is I welcome a new Kira in my lifeee (: Kira3 is born on the 25 December. Boyf, Mum & I went to Starhub. EEEEW, Causeway doesn't have it, then we headed to IMM instead to change.. :D well I am glad glad glad~!!! Mommy dearest like Boyf alot, I am jealous ;x


GOODBYE KIRA2, I won't miss you!


WELCOME KIRA3, I will love you tenderly :D

WOOO, changed phoneee! Then Boyf went to my hse help me do my food. RAWRRR.., it gotten me abit pissed off. But who cares =x Hmm, neighbour asked me if Desmond was my Boyf. AHHH =x my face was blushing! HAHAHAHA. But yea, I admit he is my Boyf <3 Muack! Hahaha. Then after that.., send Boyf downstairs around 1o.3opm.. I didn't msg-ed Boyf much cos I was talking to JonBRO before he headed to Genting. My tian~~ OUTING WITH JONBRO ON 2ND JAN! :D Excited~ :] Urm hope he buys some pressie for mee ^_^ Okays.., let me show you my siblings~! :d


SIBLINGS ARE FOR LIFEEE :D, I loveee them~ <3 Urm.., I am an addict to Spongebob, does anyone knows? xD Why do I say that..? Cos my whole body is flooded with Spongeyyyy~ :] He is also my Boyf. Who snatch with me Spongebob pays!! ;x
My Bag & my wallet ;D


I actually think I look uber cute ;x HAHAHAH. Being BHB~ Oh well.., that's how I wear for Xmas -.- so lamee~ My godma say I am filled with colors now, unlike last time ;D hahaha. I am happyyyy~ :] Okays ending this post soon enough D; don't sad. hahahaha.

26th December 2oo8, Fridayy

HAPPY BOXING DAYYYY
Okays :D I also don't know what's this day about -.- Only today on the 27th, I realized that Friday was me & Boyf's 11th weeks. :P so now I take the chance to say..,
Happy Eleventh Weeks To You & Me <33 Well.., in fact on the 11th weeeks, I went out with Boyf to Bugis. Tell you guys smth dumb. I didn't even know it was FRIDAY! Until today, I realized it was Saturday =.= Well.., normally we don't celebrate our weekly derh.., but this time round, we actually forgot our week & yet go out together. How lame, right? xD When not together window shopping, we remember. When together window shopping, we forgot~ HAHAHA we are weird peepo. Urm.., I was earlier than Boyf! >:)) HAHAHA. Urm.., what was lame was I was too focused on my game~ :D Urm.., then later we went Bugis Street and several shops to find Boyf's CNY 1st Day clothes ;D geehh, he looks hot. I want him to try new fashion ): HAHAHAHA, must try arhhh!

LOL! I have settled my CNY clothes. :D Okays.., well. Spend our time at Bugis till around 3pm then we decided to go Tamp Mall find more clothes :D Urm, saw Mingjia at Bugis. He saw me & I saw him .__. Okays, after that we headed to Tamp Mall. CRAMPS OCCURED AGAIN x= then Boyf bought a jeans. Oh ya, thanks Boyf for the Soya Bean Milk. :D So warm so nice :] Okays. Then spend time at Boyf's hse. After awhile, ahTeng comes :] Urm, ate dinner at Boyf's hse. Then, find my themes. Until around 11pm ++, AhTeng and I took MRT home. My tian, I almost ran back cos Boyf send Ahteng something which I thought he emo -.- Okays.. Then Boyf slept earlier than me, cos I busy doing things. That's about my yesterday :D no pics~ But there is for today. Cos I only took one pic ;D CHOCOLATES~ :D

27th December 2oo8, Saturdayy

CHOCOLATEEES x33s

Woke up around 2pm ++, talked to someone~ Then watch TV lorh~ After that.., use comp from just now until now. Been hrs sia. :D So ya. That's my today~ :D

Well.., the bottom is something which I came across last weeek :D it really helps me heal my inner wound quite alot :D In fact, I think it really makes sense of what it is saying & I feel so much happier :] Here it goes...,

How can we choose love when we have experienced so little of it? We choose love by taking small steps of love everytime there is an opportunity. A smile, a handshake, a word of encouragement, a phonecall, a card, a kind of greeting, an embrace, a gesture of support, a moment of attention, a helping hand, a present, a financial contribution, a visit - all these are little steps towards love.

Each step is like a candle burning in the night. It does not take the darkness away but it guides us through the darkness. When we look back after many many small steps of love, we will discover that we have made a long & beautiful journey (:

This is what I read :D meaningful, isn't it? Sometimes it do helps me heal alot unknowingly :D I can't help it but feel the sense of warmth thereee :] I guess this is LOVE. ♥ you know, I know, everyone knows, agreeed? Well.. before I end this post, I must say. NEW YEAR 2oo9 is coming. :D I guess everyone has their resolutions. Well last year resolutions, I guess it is never meant to be. Sometimes looking back to the past, you realized how beautiful memories are, but just treat it as only memories. Well I have already planned my New Year resolutions :D hahaha. I don't know when I will post again, but now I post my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! :D

Year 2oo9 Resolutions (:



xD Well.., I guess that's the end of my post :] Have fun reading each single thing in this post. :D

I got the urge to want ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Balloons! In those colors~

Labels: #865

Merry Christmas To You All (:
圣诞快乐!!

Labels: #864

Let it go just like the wind and be happy for you know you did your utmost best..,
Enough of tears flowing.., enough of biting of myself.., enough of stupidity..,
& time to be back on tracks without tears streaming down on my faces..,
It has been 3 long days since my emotions were completely screwed up..,
I guess.., some stuffs are just not meant to be..,
No matter how much you tried to save something.., if the person can't take it..,
You just got to let it go & move on with life..,
Some memories are definitely hard to forget.., but this is still life..,
Happiness & Unhappiness will just come down pouring alot...,
No one can expect what will happen next for the following days..,
Did my best to salvage the relationships & telling myself to relax in my inner peace..,
But tears just went down flowing.., so much till I couldn't control myself..,
But I guess after many long days of crying...,
Time to forgive & forget.., let things be the way it should be..,
For I did my utmost best to save relationships between me & them...,
But I guess nothing I said is of any use & I guess I just have to let them be..,
Friends Forever inside my heart.., & not thinking about it...,
Words of encouragement were there.., telling me not to give upp..,
True enough, alot managed to went in but somehow I do wonder back..,
Am I so useless towards my friendship with them..., simply I don't know...?
I seriously don't know any answers but I really must thank those who stand by me..,
Their unconditional love & support towards me.., I will never forget..,
I guess this is how life works sometimes..,
I guess I have to just face the world & kept on smiling.., telling myself.., I am strong..., I am not weak..,
Endless memories stays..., but I know I have to move on..,
Deepest apologizes to whoever I offended or what...,
I will keep on smiling & move on..., for as long as I can..,
But as long as anyone including them needs me.., I will always be there..,
Cos that's what relationships are..,
God tells me to "Forgive & Forget"..,
I am doing that.., definitely doing that.., but it seemed it doesn't apply to any of them..,
Cos they simply wants to forgo the relationships.., so I must say "so be it"
I can't do anything but Forgive & Forget...,
But no choice.., none of that works.. & life goes on with those who cared & loved me,
That's all I can say to every peepo out there who stand by me..,
I no need to say who is it.., as long as you say an encouragement..,
I love you guys.. <3>


Humans have many emotions.., negative and positive..,
& it is just a matter of which emotions you want to lead..,
I am sick of leading my negative emotions world for a week already...,
I know I can't help it but feel all useless & everything..,
But I guess I have to have the will to fight strong..,
Things have happened & the past is the past....,
Christmas is coming & I have to be in the season of happiness..,
No matter how hard it is.., I must smile & show the world "I am happy"..,
Well.., went to blogs just now & saw some stuffs..,
What can I do.., at least I am glad that his life is beautiful once again..,
I am glad for everything.., I guess..
Sometimes..., I do hate myself for being very selfish especially when I wants..,
Someone there for me.., but I guess I have to put off those feelings..,
All I know is, let's just hope things will get better..,
I have put on fake masks towards the ones who loved me..,
But I guess I need a long time to recover that face..,
I have to start my life brand new all over again with the ones who loved me..,
No more painful-ness.., no more crying.., no more biting.., no more emotional feelings.., no more stupidity.. & life goes on..,
I must say.., Daddy God has helped me alot..,
Shafiqah has helped me alot.., Desmond has helped me alot.., Someone has helped me alot.., Choyyu has helped me alot.., Zhenwen has helped me alot.., Siqi has helped me alot.., I guess peepo has helped me alot, its just a matter of what..,
True friends give sincere blessing..,
Fake friends give sarcastic remarks...,
But I guess this is the way life is to be..,
Let's just carry on smiling & move on with my life...,
A undeniable fact that everyone has to face it.., I guess this is to face reality..,
Instead of running away every single moment..,
I admit I want happy stuffs.., but happy stuffs are only in virtual world..,
I really must say I love everyone who loved me

& Let's just move on with life

And be the happiest person on earth

Cos tears are to be faded as soon as possible

Labels: #863

I guess all I can say now is simply..,
Just forgive & forget like what Qi said to me in her blog..,
I guess I am just going to forgive & forget..,
Yesterday's crying really leads me thinking alot even before Qi said anything in her blog..,
Well.., it is an undeniable fact that I do talk about my Boyf..,
But sometimes being in love.., you just can't help it, right..?
Well one thing that lead me thinking alot was..,
Is our friendship just so fragile.., the sense of understanding is it soo weak...?
I went back to reflect on myself..,
I only noticed that I have become lazier & I admit I have become..,
I have become lazier to do arrangements to meet peoples..,
I rather people inform me & I will tell you if I can make it on the spot..,
I didn't go out with Boyf much & this is a fact peepo need to know..,
I do not meet my Boyf daily, & I only cherish each moment with him..,
Buckets of tears really lead me to ponder alot..,
Today I went talking to Bunny too..,
I realized I do change abit here & there.., not that bad not that good..,
She told me things which I really want to hear & let me know what ppl thinks..,
What leads me so unhappy & sad was that..,
I feel sad for the understanding between friendships..,
True, I meet my Boyf alot but I wouldn't neglect any of my friends..,
Even if I do.., I send my deepest sorries to you guys..,
I really don't know what is people thinking this days..,
I only know.., I cherish everyone...,
I really hope things will be better.., & really hope..,
But I know nothing change the fact but the main thing is just that..,
I am really glad to have you guys as my friends..,
Always in my heart & forever.., you guys are my friends.. & friends are forever..,
Time has flown really quickly & I am glad to have so many listening ears..,
Thank you for being there, everyonee..,
All I know I am feeling really moody is the false accusation on people..,
I don't go out with my Boyf much.., I just stay at home..,
I guess.., these are my thoughts towards what happened yesterday..,
Continue thinking.., I guess I will go mad..,
I want thank God for really standing by mee..
I want thank every single soul who stands by me...,


Jon & Denise
Regardless you guys treat me as a friend or not.., FRIENDSHIPS ARE FOREVER.., I love you guys <3.., that's my words for you guys.. Boyf ain't my all! He is just a guy who is my love. (:

Labels: #862

I AM SWINGING AGAIN =/
Fucking problems are making me nuts & crazy..,
I am feeling all mad.., all crazy.., all Fucked up..,
Stupid problems are made me to be Fucked up!
So irritating.., I hate Fucked up problems..,
I don't know how to say.., I don't want to do..,Fucked stuffs kill me so badly..,
I want my smiled Fucking badly..,
So insane.., so irritating.., so insane.., so fucking..,
I hate things that are so stupid.., irritating..,
Fucked up! Fucking irritating..,
Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking
Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking
Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking
Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking
Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking Fucking
FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.... ):

Labels: #861

I don't know what is going on..,
I don't know what people are thinking this days..,
I seriously lost.., just when I thought I am healing my wounds..,
Things just gotten so worse & fucking irritating..,
I am bleeding right now.., but who the fuck knows what I am going through..,
I love my friends, I love my Boyf...,
But is that just a crime...?
Must I really be single and happily counting my months..,
I really have no fucking idea what's wrong..,
It is really bleeding my fucking heart so much..,
I care so much for every single humans in my life..,
But it seemed it ain't enough..,
Why do I bother to care and buy pressies for people..,
But simply what I get back is stabs stabs into my heart..,
It is painful.., you know.., It really hurts me so deeply..,
Must I always be the one enduring what the fuck people are saying..,
Yes I am soft, fucking soft.., like a tofu.., but I have my rights to, you know..,
I really don't know what should I do now..,
My life isn't revolving around my boyfriends..,
How on earth can people understand.., seriously..,
I have no idea.., what is life becoming to be..,
It is going to be Christmas, the Season of giving..,
But it seemed everything is crashing down on my life..,
I hate this feeling.., I want to recover from my depression..,
I have been having this fucking depression for so long..,
& I am trying my best to cure it.., but people just seemed to be stabbing and stabbing..,
I have no idea what to think.., what to say..,
I am just lost in my own land.., does caring someone always lead to such things..,
I can't don't care.., its in my personality..,
I really have no intention to lose my FRIENDS or my BOYF ):
I want sunny days in my life.., I want to see stars in my night..,
I don't want this fucking painful-ness inside my heart..,
It took me uber long to see the sunshine & I am back in my rainy days..,
I don't know how.., I really don't know how..,
Buckets of tears just came down pouring down my face..,
I am crying.., crying so much till I am lost.., I am bleeding..,
I am going berserk & bonkers & mad & crazy & fucking madness..,
I really don't know what to do.., I really is lost..,
Everyone seemed to be this and that..,
I want to hear something nice, something sweet, something happy,
I want my friends back, I want my boyf back..,
But my emotions are fucking bad now.., I am running in whirls again =/
I really don't know WHAT THE FUCKING HELL is my life meant to be..,
I cherish my friends, my boyf.. & things become liddat..,
I don't know what to do.., I really don't want to lose anyone ):
WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! ):
I am crying within the heart badly.., so much so lost..,
No words seemed to go in.., I don't know I don't know!
All I can say is I DON'T KNOW!
I don't want to know anything.., I don't want to know anything!
But obviously I know everything, I can't seemed to pretend I don't know..,
I don't know how ?!?!?! Tell me someone....,
I am LOST! FUCKING lost.., I don't intend to lose anyone.., yet carrying on loving them..,
WHAT THE FUCK IS ONE'S PROBLEM?
What can I do to end this kind of problems..,
No intentions to blow things up yet in the end.., what should never be come, came
I have no idea.., really no idea.., I want to know answers..,
I am fucking lost.., finally when I finally thought things are over..,
One after another just came along & start me to death..,
What shall I do.., NUMB MYSELF?
I ain't facing any breakups or what.., yet I am facing problems?
I don't know =/ What can I do.., what can I say..,
How can I save myself..? I need a ear..,
But I can't seemed to talk a single bit..,
I really don't know.., really irritated with everything..,
So irritating.., ): I seemed to be back to emo zone..,
FUCKING EMO SH!T )':
I hate this part..,
What is friendship..,
What is relationships...,
Questions are everywheree..., fucking problems.., EVERYTHING FUCK FUCK FUCK! ):


FUCKING SHIT STUFFS ARE MEANT TO BE KILLED BUT I CAN'T SEEMED TO FORGET ANYTHING. MY BRAIN IS ALIVE. FUCKING STUFFS ARE MAKING FUCKED UP! ): I AM FUCKING FUCKING LOST! ~!@#$%^&*() FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Labels: #860

»

«