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Who knows what is going through my mind?
Who knows I am severly hurt by them & just rather keep quiet?
Who knows pretending and put on a mask is my best?
Who knows all I ever needed is love not scolding or reprimanding?
Who knows I try so much to do something, but it always fail?
Who knows the quarrels I caused are really making me fearful to open my mouth?
Who knows I rather smile totally then be unhappy totally?
Who knows I hate wrecking up my day?
Who knows I just needed someone to tell things so nicely?
Who knows his pampering is all I ever needed?
Who knows in front of me is just a fake person and she is climbing her best?
Who knows I depend on myself & on him alot?
Who knows I just want to have dates with him, not worrying about $$?
Who knows? Who really knows? Seriously who knows anything? ):

I really don't know what to do ): Who knows I am really doing something? T.T Who knows I have been saying alot but no one knows. History always repeat. I do really want him to be the nicest guy on earth but he can't be cos he is simply just a straight forward-person. I accept the facts. I am okays with it. But when my heart is really sinking, but why can't he be the most romantic guy? D: Why? This Boyf of mine has been the best damn thing but sometimes I am so clueless on doing things right. He fits my category of my Boy. But his directness make me totally at a loss. :/ What can I do to stop this pain? I love him, but he is getting tired of everything around me. I am attached to him, & I just hope we can do more things when we are having a date. Spending money without worries, being who we are, rather than worrying so much. I admit I admire couples that the guy spend their time with their girl. Been the best and almost perfect kind of thing. Oh well, quarrels is unpredictable but its love. All I know now is "I am really trying my best to tell them what is running through me, I am fighting everything. But proving to you is impossible cos you know nothing. Whether I done or not, only I know. Cos I can't tell you. It is my personal life. Parents thingy, I only know I love to consult you but your words always hurt me but I still enjoy listening to it.. That's all I can say. But remember, I always love you <3. Cos you will be my one & only forever and always.. "

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